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I watched Ted Kennedy's funeral today, I watched it on my computer.
It's strange to see so many powerful and influential people packed into the Mission Church.
It's strange because just a few months ago I walked and then stopped by that same vaulting church - from a community center in Roxbury Crossing - up through Mission Hill and down through Harvard Medical School on my way to Longwood. The stretch of Tremont from Malcom X Blvd. to Huntington is the clearest glimpse into Boston's soul. Although I don't share the tales of Ted Kennedy and his mythical quest that has woefully come to an end, I do have something just as valuable. I can't specifically say what it is. As Ted knew, it's a complex system that cannot contain one succinct answer. It's Beckett's unnameable.
It's Edwin A. Sheward and what he meant
It's living according to a certain narrative
It's why Kerouac could not completely leave Catholicism
It's having made mistakes bound for all men and trying to right them
It's being born into a level of privilege and living to serve the other
It's accomplishing things the official way and the unofficial way
It's tapping into the American consciousness
It's building a foundation for the future
It's you!
A man's measure is made by his decisions.
temptation, conflict, anxiety, expectation, and desire continually pound on the door.
How do you answer? That is your measure.
II
60's degree steady rain
packing it all up to move
comforting to discover the ease
of not possessing too many things
feeling like a nomad to an extent
what of the choices not made
those made
how to ramble
how to build the foundation
a friend's conflict presented by nature and society
solidifies my resolve
the skyway above
the golden valley below
it was not made just for you and me
out with the old and in with the new
how can we direct our furniture towards the sun
when we live underground?
As all things must pass, we say fare thee well
III
we rejoice in our aprons
and pants ripped sliding down rocks
mighty rivers cannot keep us
walls of concrete and theory
too cannot keep us
While loved ones are far away
our memories serve us well
We dive into water that's just too cold
to remind us
it must be good for somebody